Another day another competition entry

So, my (latest) cunning plan for World Domination (read: get people to read my stuff) is writing competitions. It’s brutal. Almost as brutal as magazine submissions. In fact, even more so, since you pay for the privilege of rejection.

Last night, I attended the High Sheriff’s Cheshire Prize for Literature 2018, and upon listening to the two winning entries, thought to myself, hm…. W-A-Y more literary than my entry (damnit)! Today, I’m working on an entry for Reflex Fiction’s Quarterly International Flash Fiction Competition- by which I mean, today I am finding other things to do to put off the pain of the final edit. Of course, as I sit here, avoiding edits, I’m starting to realise that this may not be the best thing for me just now…

In case you’ve not started down this particular road, let me tell you what it’s like to enter a writing competition.  You find a competition and research it by reading past entries, and you think to yourself, okay, well, some of this is almost-sort-of-not-quite-but-maybe-similar to what I do, and then you rummage through your hard-drive looking for a story of the right length and then spend the next week or two frantically editing and worrying and obsessing to get it just right. Then, you send it off up the chimney and resolve to put the whole thing out of your mind and get on with the collection you’re meant to be working on. Except you don’t, do you? No, you wait, and wait. And while you wait, you obsess. And then you dream…. Oh the things you could do with £1,000 prize money…

And then you don’t see your name on the Highly Commendeds, or the Runners Ups, and you sure as s*it don’t see it on the Winners List, and a little bit of you kind of dies inside. You sit down at your desk, pushing your current Work of Strange and Subtle Genius around like peas on a plate, while your brain tells you (in a whisper that sounds just like THAT maths teacher you had during your GCSEs) that you’re rubbish. And, because you’re rubbish, you put the Work of Strange and Subtle Genius away and go and do something else instead, just to silence your maths teacher’s voice, and distance yourself from the embarrassment of having mentally won and spent £1,000 of glorious recognition. And, because you’re a sensitive little flower, it takes you a good week or so to put yourself back together again- just in time to start all over again.

So, no, that’s enough now, my poor fragile ego won’t cope. Doing well in a literary competition might do wonders for my writing career, but just now, writing will have to be its own reward. So, no more competitions for me.

…After I’ve sent this last story off, of course!

4 Replies to “Another day another competition entry”

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    1. Sorry I’ve been a bit slow to reply- still getting used to how this whole blog thing works! The site’s on wordpress- it’s okay, but not the most user-friendly platform in the world so everything’s a bit trial and error. I’ve used Blogger, previously, and LiveJournal, many moons ago, and they’re both much easier to navigate, although the finished result isn’t as pretty as wordpress. Thanks again!

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